Suicidal Christians – from living to die to dying to live

This book is not only for those who are suicidal; it is for anyone who is finding life tough.

My heart used to sink when I heard testimonies in church where the ‘I-gave-my-life-to-Jesus-and-now-I-am-happy’ story flew in the face of my own reality – life sucked and I didn’t see any end in sight. Since asking God into my life I had been raped, kidnapped, held up at gun point (all separate occasions) and in the aftermath of these traumas, I have battled with addiction, chronic pain, debilitating low self-esteem, depression, many fears and multiple suicide attempts.  I asked myself if my conversion was real and could not understand why my prayers were not being answered and why I was struggling so much in my life. But I knew there was a God – so many things confirmed that fact in my life.  But if He is Love then why is He allowing such suffering?  I set out to find answers to my questions.

There are answers, and the answers will surprise you…

The solutions will too…

This book is not just the harrowing story of my life.  It is a step-by-step guide to finding joy.  It begins where you are by helping you discover more about yourself.  Each chapter contains practical checklists and bullet points, suggested prayers and inspired help, interspersed with exciting allegories.  If you, like me, have ever asked questions like:  Why do I feel so trapped?  Why don’t I feel favoured? Why am I so scared?  Why can’t I get out of this cycle of harming myself? Why can’t I forgive and why do I even need to?  Do I have a demonic problem? Why has nothing changed?  Is suicide a sin?  Will I go to heaven? Where is God in all of this and why isn’t He helping me? – then this book is for you.

In paperback and eBook

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